Truthfully, as illustrated by the incredible length of that video, I struggle to even explain the story of my life and that is okay. Hopefully with time, I will feel more equipped to explain it better.
However, for those who would like a concise version, I encourage you to check out what this blessed stranger wrote. She tells my life story far better than I still can. This article was an honor and to this day and probably forever, it will be a beacon of clarity and progress for me. Feel free to check it out here.
To get a few more kind stranger's take on all the ridiculous things I do, feel free to check out these links.
I think of myself as just a girl. The truth is I am almost thirty but I wake up every day as an 18 year old. Shockingly ;), due to rare side effects from three electroconvulsive treatments during my first psychiatric hospitalization, my memory resets to my first week of college each morning. I spend my days relearning who I am, where I fit in and all the complicated realities of this beautiful world we live in. It's confusing, spectacular, exhausting and exhilarating all at the same time.
I am honored to be alive. I survived a misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder, 21 psychiatric hospitalizations, over 50 medication trials and 4 years of constant suicidality. With the death of my main doctor and the doubt of another, the entire course of my life changed. I was given a second chance.
I am here to love and live the hell out of that second chance.
I am here to dance away my ptsd demons, write my truth, find light in the darkness and celebrate it all no matter if it makes sense or not. Mostly, I am here to love myself and you, get silly, find gratitude and spread as much light as I can while still on this planet I have the privilege to call home.
It is time to end the stigma surrounding mental health and change our perception of beauty. I want to help in any way I can in those efforts.
I am here to spread this:
WE ARE WHOLE
WE ARE BEAUTIFUL.
WE ARE WORTHY.
AND ABOVE ALL,
WE ARE ALWAYS ENOUGH.
EXACTLY AS WE ARE.
If you made it this far, all I can say is thank you - it's an honor to have you here.