First. Thank you so much for being here. It is an honor to have you here with me.

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About me

I think of myself as just a girl. I am 30 years old and yet, due to shock therapy and an eight year misdiagnosis that had me in and out of psychiatric wards, I am still learning and exploring the many truths that make me, me. Those truths evolve every day.

At the moment, I think of myself as a dog mom who lives with her fiance, Dave, and is determined to change the public's perception of mental health and vulnerability.

I am a writer, speaker, storyteller, photographer and change maker. 

I am also a total goofball who loves her dog, interior design, eggs in every form, the color electric salmon, all things Vermont and outdoor adventures.

And, most notably, I am an anomaly who has the great privilege to still be alive.

Unlike many of my peers in mental health recovery who died by way of suicide due to mental illness or live out their days behind a locked door, I survived and live a life of total freedom.

I have been given a second chance at life.

I am here to love and live the hell out of this second chance.

I am also here to make a difference with it.

It is time to end the stigma surrounding mental health and transparent vulnerability. I am here to do exactly that.

This is me taking that first step and showing up - exactly as I am, enough in every way, in both my darkness and my light.

 

How did I become Positively Kate?

As stated, due to shock therapy and an interrupted memory, I am still learning all about that. (Thus, this epic blog of self expression and explorations as I process it all.)

However, if you care to learn more about my story and if you learn best by watching video, feel free to watch me attempt to explain my story in this video.

If video is not your jam and you learn better by reading then I encourage you to actually check out what this blessed journalist wrote in the Daily Mail. She tells my life story far better than I still can.  Feel free to check it out here.

And someday, yes someday, I hope to tell my story in my own words. In the interim though, I'll be here growing into me and I'm psyched to have you along for the ride.

Sending smooches and snugs,

Kate & Waffy

I feel that to have a blog is already enough of a self involved media stunt but my friend in PR says this is a must. Thus, I present you the articles I have been truly honored to have been featured in...

Please note: I share everything.

What do I mean by that you ask?

I mean I share the naked truth - literally all of me here - both my darkness and my light. I know it is unusual to be let in to such an extent into someone's life but I don't want it to be.

I want to build a world where all of ourselves belong - both our joy and our pain. By showing up exactly as I am - always, I am starting to build that world.

I would love for you to accept me as I do this and help me build that world. But, if you can't just yet, no hard feelings. It took me a long time to realize that pain has to be welcome here too.

I would not be me without these souls.

Meet my Pack.

This is me and my better half, Dave. Dave came into my life when I was 26 and slept 18 -22 hours a day and could barely leave my house due to extreme anxiety. With true kindness and unwavering support, he accepted all that I was and never asked for anything more. He is a pure gift to me and I could not have recovered to the extent I have without him. Dave, known to me as my lovey, teaches me daily how to be a better human while also never failing to make me laugh, even in the depths of my depressive episodes. Thankfully, he also teaches me how to be a smarter human. He is a forest ecologist by training and a research professor at Dartmouth College in the Environmental Science Department.  As the nerd of our pack, he shows us how powerful knowledge and science are.  He is the reason I have finally started reading scientific papers to support my emotional claims and thank goodness for that because goodness knows we have enough fake news already.

This is me and my better half, Dave. Dave came into my life when I was 26 and slept 18 -22 hours a day and could barely leave my house due to extreme anxiety. With true kindness and unwavering support, he accepted all that I was and never asked for anything more. He is a pure gift to me and I could not have recovered to the extent I have without him.

Dave, known to me as my lovey, teaches me daily how to be a better human while also never failing to make me laugh, even in the depths of my depressive episodes.

Thankfully, he also teaches me how to be a smarter human. He is a forest ecologist by training and a research professor at Dartmouth College in the Environmental Science Department.  As the nerd of our pack, he shows us how powerful knowledge and science are.  He is the reason I have finally started reading scientific papers to support my emotional claims and thank goodness for that because goodness knows we have enough fake news already.

This is me and my dog, Waffle. I am obsessed with her. Truly. And no, I am not ashamed to say it and I am not going to stop talking about her so you better deal with it or I fear you are in the wrong place.  Truth be told, Waffle is more famous anyone I know. Known to the internet as Wafflenugget, she is breaking hearts everywhere and yup, I'm proud.  I told you I am obsessed with her, right?  Waffle - also knows to us Bunny for her bunny hopping ways - is more than an internet heartthrob to me, however. She is my psychiatric service dog. She alerts me prior to ptsd flashbacks and interrupts me when I perform obsessive compulsive rituals. Through her assistance, she has expedited my recovery and helped save my life. I could not be more grateful for her presence in my life.

This is me and my dog, Waffle. I am obsessed with her. Truly. And no, I am not ashamed to say it and I am not going to stop talking about her so you better deal with it or I fear you are in the wrong place. 

Truth be told, Waffle is more famous anyone I know. Known to the internet as Wafflenugget, she is breaking hearts everywhere and yup, I'm proud.  I told you I am obsessed with her, right? 

Waffle - also knows to us Bunny for her bunny hopping ways - is more than an internet heartthrob to me, however. She is my psychiatric service dog. She alerts me prior to ptsd flashbacks and interrupts me when I perform obsessive compulsive rituals. Through her assistance, she has expedited my recovery and helped save my life. I could not be more grateful for her presence in my life.

These are my parents, Nan and Elliott. Adventurous, brilliant and always on the go, they are an inspiration in how they live. Both doctors determined to change the healthcare system, they taught me to value my ownership of care and story.  Both of these amazing humans stood by me through my entire life - learning disability, depression, misdiagnosis and all. Whether washing my hair when I was depressed, dropping off clothes in the ward when I was inpatient, driving me to therapy or helping me pass a course at Middlebury College, they never gave up on me. Most people did.   I could not be more grateful for their support and presence in my life. 

These are my parents, Nan and Elliott. Adventurous, brilliant and always on the go, they are an inspiration in how they live. Both doctors determined to change the healthcare system, they taught me to value my ownership of care and story. 

Both of these amazing humans stood by me through my entire life - learning disability, depression, misdiagnosis and all. Whether washing my hair when I was depressed, dropping off clothes in the ward when I was inpatient, driving me to therapy or helping me pass a course at Middlebury College, they never gave up on me. Most people did. 

 I could not be more grateful for their support and presence in my life. 

These are my sisters. I call them my buddies. Josie (on the left) and Allegra (on the right). These two beautiful women are my best friends and that makes me the luckiest girl. I will admit, walking through life together has not always been sunshine and rainbows. I mean, we are ALL girls after all, but every moment is a moment I am grateful for because they have collectively made us into the best friends that we are today. Allegra, the eldest, lives in San Francisco with her husband (whats up Jonny?!! I love you too and photo coming soon I swear). Allegra works for Fenix, a company that brings solar power to rural areas in Africa. She is a true gift of a human, radiating love to everyone and always putting others before herself. Also, she is literally the best cook I know and if you also have celiac and are allergic to sugar, she's your gal - her baking is #goals. Josie, the youngest of us, lives in Cambridge with her boyfriend Ed (whats up Zippity - the coolest start up!). Josie is at medical school at Harvard and I couldn't be more proud of her work ethic there. Truth be told though, that's not what I am most proud of  - it is her love and  loyalty. She shows up. always. Although, I will admit, her loyalty on the trail when we are running is sometimes one I could do without. I mean, can't I walk just a bit??? Please!!!

These are my sisters. I call them my buddies. Josie (on the left) and Allegra (on the right).

These two beautiful women are my best friends and that makes me the luckiest girl. I will admit, walking through life together has not always been sunshine and rainbows. I mean, we are ALL girls after all, but every moment is a moment I am grateful for because they have collectively made us into the best friends that we are today.

Allegra, the eldest, lives in San Francisco with her husband (whats up Jonny?!! I love you too and photo coming soon I swear). Allegra works for Fenix, a company that brings solar power to rural areas in Africa. She is a true gift of a human, radiating love to everyone and always putting others before herself. Also, she is literally the best cook I know and if you also have celiac and are allergic to sugar, she's your gal - her baking is #goals.

Josie, the youngest of us, lives in Cambridge with her boyfriend Ed (whats up Zippity - the coolest start up!). Josie is at medical school at Harvard and I couldn't be more proud of her work ethic there. Truth be told though, that's not what I am most proud of  - it is her love and  loyalty. She shows up. always. Although, I will admit, her loyalty on the trail when we are running is sometimes one I could do without. I mean, can't I walk just a bit??? Please!!!

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